Momentum

As we had the Memorial service for our neighbor (her and her two boys), the night before I was deeply triggered by the trauma and found myself in the middle of the abandonment, rejection, and uncertainty of my father's suicide.  Showing up at the Memorial service on 1 hours sleep I was in a raw place as the grief, abandonment, feelings of being overwhelmed by the tragedy, and rejection were all very one the surface.  At one point I believe like many who are on this journey that Jesus would heal you and you would simply live life gloriously healed and whole.  The rawness of experiencing a dimension of my deepest wound in life reminded me that this is certainly not the reality for me and not the reality for others as well.

I believe for us to have momentum we must see the times when we get lost in our wounds or overwhelmed by shame in the perspective of Father's love.  There are times it's like we are driving a jeep through the jungle with so much mud and rain on the windshield that it seems impossible to see.  Just when we catch a glimpse of the road ahead the windshield wipers streak mud and water across the windshield clouding it over again.  It seems we must navigate by the glimpses between the completely clouded windshield.  This is why our journey is to "walk by faith and not by sight", we must trust that Father is "causing all things to work together for our good."  Even when there are emotions that "trigger" us to drop into a painful place, He is forming us into the image of His Son. God spoke to Graham Cooke and said, “Graham, I want you to get to a point where there is no such thing as a good situation or a bad one. There are no good days or bad days, just days of grace.”

We only have one true identity and that is our identity "in Christ", every other identity is based on a lie or something that want last.  God is not working on your old self, this self has been crucified and He is now developing your new self, throwing off the old ways of thinking and living.  I believe continuous momentum is knowing who God is (revelation) and experiencing who we are in Him.  Identity is central to momentum because otherwise we will rely on what will fail, like our works, fleshly efforts, or the performance of others.  God is always writing our story and that is always one of Redemption because Christ is our Redeemer and we are in Him.  Our story is forever intertwined in our story and every interpretation of life apart from Him will fall away.

In His Story,
Bret