Sonship and Light

Sometimes revelation breaks forth like a good soaking rain, when there has been a long drought.  Other times the seeds of revelation spring forth after the they have laid dormant in the soil for many weeks, months, or even years.  I believe the Lord has planted seeds in my heart for years about walking in the Light but this revelation is now springing forth with new life for me.

As I continue to press into the Father's Love to live from a place in His heart, at rest in His love, and having His love pour forth I am learning what hinders the flow.  As an only child of a single mom I often spent many hours alone, being more of introvert it was easy to withdraw and hide.  I still enjoy time by myself with the Lord, especially taking hikes, walks, or somewhere in nature.  Yet there have been patterns, agreements, lies, and sins from my old life that still have room to sneak into my life.  Since at 6 years old my father committed suicide after being suicidal from age 18 till he finally ended his life at 36 years old, the way of walking in darkness has been well paved for me.

Times of self-pity, withdrawal, depression, and despair have been known in my life.  Yet Colossians 1:13 says, "For He rescued us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son,"  I am a child of Light according to Ephesians 5:8, "for you were formerly darkness, but now you are Light in the Lord; walk as children of Light."  When we agree with our old nature and walk in it's ways then we are deceived to believe this is who we are and are bound to always be.  The Father's love breaks forth in the gospel by announcing all our sins are completely forgiven and we are washed clean, then even further our old nature has died on the cross with Him and been buried.  The new man that came forth united with Christ in resurrection life is brand new and totally transformed.

I have found that walking out being a New Creation and a Beloved Son is not as easy as the truth of the Gospel is proclaimed.  Not because God has neglected anything in the Gospel and even given us the Holy Spirit but because my mind has been so deeply entrenched in the darkness and seeing myself as an orphan.  One of the best analogies I can use is being married, I have been married for 22 years and I remember the day of our wedding and lighting the unity candle.  We were married in a moment and our lives forever changed, yet I have spent the last 22 years exploring the reality of marriage and learning about love.  I am not more married than I was 22 years ago but my understanding and revelation of this life-changing relationship has grown dramatically.

I am convinced that being a Child of Light, having a revelation of His light and choosing to live my life in the light without hiding areas of my life is crucially important to knowing Father's love.  Living in the light (truly being known by those closest to us) is one of the most humbling ways to live, yet frees us from the traps of the darkness.

Choosing His Light,
Bret